Talking art #1 : In your hands pt 1

 Today's post will be more of an explanation as to why I drew or illustrated this piece of artwork. I will always show the piece in the blog. In the future, I will leave a link to my online portfolio, where I will slowly add my work.

Today's piece will be:

In your hands was a massive art piece I did in high school senior year. It was to be one of my physical pieces that are was meant to be in the art show. Its a cardboard piece that took up a few of my study halls. I started with this piece because I am a "Save the earth." person. I say that in quotes because school makes it hard to try to become eco friendly. Better yet society makes it hard.

Gasline contains over 100 forms of chemicals and we see about a hundred cars on the road by a minute. I own no car because I do not have my permit yet, But if I did I use the car to go long-distance or even to the grocery store. I personally love to walk even if my feet are sore by the time I get back home(unless its winter).

The first time I came up with this idea for the painting was when I traced my hand on a piece of paper because I was bored and alone. In high school, I didn't have friends where I could really sit and talk to. I usually felt weirded out by the people because I couldn't trust anyone. I never told them that, I even on some days distanced myself because anxiety was slowly creeping up. I always thought someone was looking at me when I'm in the lunchroom or hallway. I get easily frustrated in class when I'm working alone with no one to talk to. I would even doodle on the work and turn in the paper with the small scribbles and circles on the corner of the pages. And on this one day, I chose to trace my hand on paper. I was always an over-thinker when it came to art or design. I thought of a way I could make this hand, my hand, stand out or even be apart of something big. 

The hand started off as different shades of colors to represent skin tones, But I thought of that to be a little racial and I didn't want to deal with back lace or even me being racist. Better yet, Someone tries to sue me because they feel offensive, I wasn't taking a risk at all. That idea went into the trash, Literally. I started over with my hand on the paper. I went towards something that made love colors, gradients.

I love to mix colors together and blend them, I thought if I did a space like a theme, It would be so pretty, I would make a gradient of black, purples, pinks, some white, and blues. So I started to color in small squares different gradients and looks. I didn't like any of them, I thought they were all organized and neat. I wanted to go for not organized or neat. I went with the flow on the background, I threw on colors I originally planned on doing. I blended some, I left some unblended. That started because of my anxiety. At the time, I was inside a classroom where a class was being kept, but since I had a study hall, I took the time to do art. The kids in the class would look at me, and I found it rather annoying.

I tried to overcome the feeling by thinking about random things in my head, those didn't work. I threw colors on the massive piece of board in front of me and blended as I rushed to finish. When I was done. I was shocked. I hated the look, I wanted to start over but it was too late for that. I spent about 3 hours of study halls on this background and I wasn't going to make it waste.

College

 This is the start of a new adventure for me. In a few days, I will be going off on my own. I couldn't wait for this day to arrive. I have a bucket list in which I want to follow but who knows? Many things can change over time. Because of the Covid-19, many of my hopes and plans went down the drain.

Before Corona, I wanted to go to places such as Disney and Universal, But with the corona, I changed all plans. I want to just focus on my business for the new year and getting my stuff together. In order to keep my mind active in writing and thinking, I will use this blog to talk about big and small things that are very stressful or even just funny. Today I will answer a question I ask myself when I'm alone or bored: If I could have any power in the world, What would it be?

Believe it or not, my power choices are all different but the top three choices are to either go to another universe, To turn garbage into cash, or even to be super smart. My first power choice would go to another universe because I could go into a world such as anime, In which I could live young for years on years or have never-ending life. Or better yet find a way to become rich and live happily. Yet this idea is only a Weeb's dream that will never come true. So that's why I have two other choices to bring to the table. The power to turn trash into money. 

The power to take any garbage and turn it into money would be 'God Modding' But that why the power shouldn't give out like thousands of dollars for one garbage. No, you have to put the work in for what its worth. A small gum wrapper would be worth maybe five cents. While a can of soda should be a dollar. If this was the case. I would run a company that would obtain the garbage by regular people and gives them the money they earn. This power would basically have everyone putting in the work to not only make the world a better place but to obtain money. I would also pay taxes so that the government can do work such as build schools and such. So I wouldn't be rich and powerful. I would be given back to the world with this power.

Finally, the power to be smart would help me become rich because I would my smartness to earn money to then own a famous business. One such as the small unknown business I have now. This really is a back out power. But that's it for today, Doing this writing really helps my mind relax and wander beyond life at the moment it is now. Thank you for reading and reaching so far. 

Welcome

    This blog is an open space for those of all ages to relate and think about how they can help themselves and others relieved, What I honestly think is a big problem in my generation: Stress. As a recent high school graduate of 2020, I feel as if everything I worked for was washed away. I lost one of the biggest events in my life, Prom. 

    

    This would be a topic in which I will speak on in the future. But for right now I am simply giving a baseline of how the blog would work and what you should expect to see. So please bear with me as I talk about many emotional topics. But the point is to cope with the events in many ways as possible.

    I hope that my blog will bring happiness and inspiration to many people. Those who do not tend to seek anything good from this blog then please know, I still enjoy and praise you for reading whatever I have in my mind. Just the thought of someone reading and comment about a similar idea or even more topic ideas. This is just wonderful.